Goodnight Thoughts


When 8pm comes around and they, eventually, are sound asleep in their beds, do you know what I do? Even on the days when I’ve wished them to sleep all day long, even on the days when I’ve hidden in the pantry praying no one would find me and need something? I look at pictures of them. Like, I miss them. While they are sleeping. Even though when they were awake I was wishing them asleep. Parenthood, more than anything, is lunacy.

Goodnight Thoughts

I wished for bedtime
when I kissed them good morning –
not a way
to start the day.

But here I am now,
while they sleep,
telling stories about them,
looking at pictures of them,
hovering over their beds,
hoping that all of the love
I feel for them
will make up for
all of the energy and
all of the patience
I lacked

can I hold on
to this feeling
until 5 o’clock
tomorrow morning?

  • Angi Dilkes Perry

    This is why the book I’ll Love you Forever gets me so completely, every time. I still sneak in and peek at both of my boys. And I’ve warned them not to be alarmed if I ever show up in their dorm room/apartment/bedroom. Beautifully captured, as always.

    January 23, 2015 at 4:29 pm

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